Hubby’s 37th

Dada's Bday at the Park

My hubby turned 37 last April 18th. We would have wanted to celebrate it some place special. There have been plans actually but we can’t go some place which will take hours for traveling. Instead, what we did was to go to the nearest park in our area. Walking under the huge trees of La Mesa Eco Park was a stress buster on its own. You can trail the whole park without feeling exhausted, must have been the oxygen from the trees. We were lucky to be gifted a nice weather as well. Another surprise was the Cultural show on the amphitheater of the place. Some cultural groups from different schools were there to perform their stuffs. One group caught my attention. They are from University of the Philippines. The name of their group was Kontemporaryong Gamelan Pilipino (Kontra-Gapi). They played all sort of cultural Filipino music. We hear them played music from different tribes. It reminds me of the time that I still play the lyre (Yes, I did! way back in high school). The music was soothing and it was nice to dance with the tunes.

Indeed we would have enjoyed the day if it was spent somewhere else. But who says, we did not enjoy nature at La Mesa Eco Park.

And it rained

Almost a week before the Semana Santa, PAGASA had already warned Filipinos that they will be having a rainy holy week ahead. As always, we just shrugged off any news about the rain and took the weather one day at a time. As Holy Monday came in, the heat was becoming unbearable that if not for what had happened a week ago, I would have asked Hubby to bring us to the nearest resort at least so we can dip and brush off the heat. I even can’t resist turning on the aircon on that night. I wake up to another hot and humid Tuesday. I was actually wishing for the rain to come. And Lo and Behold, it did rain. Jian was begging to take a rain bath together with my cousins. Childhood memories dictated that I should give in. And I did! So, this is Jian’s first rain bath, ever!

And he enjoyed it so much!

at nagutom ang bujojoy ko afterwards.

When was the last time you enjoyed taking a bath in the rain?

Ang Binawing Regalo

It’s friday once again.  I am usually excited about weekends, excited because I will be on my restdays the next two days.  However, today is a different friday.  Today reminds me of a different thing.

It was a week since I came to know that I was pregnant with what  could have been our second baby.  I was so excited last week that I have been posting it to most of the sites I frequently visit.  We have been waiting for another baby since time in memoriam.  However, it was on that same night that I felt a sudden pain on my left lower back.  I was so afraid that I immediately rested when I went home that day.  I went to bed and prayed so hard that nothing will happen bad to us.  I was awaken by the icky feeling on my undies.  As I pee, I noticed some blood stains on them as well.  I asked my husband to buy another pregnancy test kit and I tested positive again.  I immediately went to the nearest hospital and seek the hellp on an Obstetrician on Duty.  I was scheduled to have an ultrasound, which confirmed there was indeed a gestational sac on my uterus.  The sonologists it was five weeks old.  I was advised to have complete bed rest and was made to take some medications which were meant to save the baby.  I immediately went on  a complete bed rest as told.  It was on Sunday early morning however, when our house cat suddenly jumps from nowhere on our bed.  I was awaken from sleep and felt the urge to go to the toilet.  As I was peeing, I felt something dropped from me, it was like a lump of blood.  I was not able to check it but my husband did.  He said it was a blood clot.  We went on to sleep again, but I just cannot.  I was worried sick.  That morning I asked Hubby to call on my OB.  He was hesitant because it was a sunday.  But then he saw me in tears.  Doctor told hubby, I will be scheduled for another ultrasound just to make sure the gestational sac is still intact.  I prayed hard on that day, even calling on my deceased mom to help me.  The following day was a very long day for me.  It was my 33rd birthday.  Yes, it was my birthday when I heard the worst news that keeps on echoing on my mind till now.  The baby was no longer there.  I cried so hard hanggang sa halos Impit na lang ang pag iyak ko.  Tuwing me tatawag at babati ng Happy Birthday, iiyakan ko lang sila.  I don’t exactlyknow how I will be able to move on.  Pero pag nakikita ko ang panganay ko at si Hubby, I am reminded I still have them and I need to win the fight over depression, para sa kanila.

To date, I am trying to busy myself on almost anything that won’t entail so much strength.  I am trying to enjoy the vacation but I can’t make a smile last on my face.

I just hope that everything will be fine In His Time.

The long wait is over

A few days from now, I will be celebrating my 33rd year here on Earth.  As most of us, I have my birthday wishes as well.  You see, I lost my mom, a few months back.  On her wake, I have been trying to look ahead to this day.  This is going to be my first birthday without her usual morning greeting.  As in, kahit galit sya or masama ang loob nya sa akin, she never fails to greet me.  I know I will no longer hear her greetings on my birthday but she sure has her way of sending me a birthday present from heaven.  She visited my dreams a few day’s back.  I could not contain my joy as I hugged her tight, she just smiled her usual smile.    And then she was gone, again.  I was already happy when I woke up that day.  I never really expected to receive any birthday present from her.  Though as I can remember during her wake, someone told me that I can whisper her a wish and she will directly request it to God.  I did whisper her something, but I know she knows what my heart is asking.  Three days before my birthday, God already gave me the two lines that we have always been praying for.  Yes, that’s two lines for a positive pregnancy test.  That is after three years of waiting. 

 

My period was due nine days ago but it did not came.   Thanks, Mom, for making sure I still have something to be happy about on my birthday.  Thanks so much for giving the most wonderful birthday gift.  God indeed answers prayers. 

Oh, and would you believe me posibilidad na maging kabirthday ng Mama ko ang baby na ito pag nagkataon?! 

Praying for an Angel

“Angel of God,
my guardian dear,
To whom God’s love
commits me here,
Ever this day,
be at my side,
To light and guard,
Rule and guide.
Amen.”

Have you been touched by an angel?  I have been, just recently.  I was cleaning our house last weekend and I was about to dispose old newspapers which are starting to file up on our living room.  Tired as I was on that day, I wanted to take it real slow.  I flipped through the pages of some old news items.  I tell you, I am not the kind of person who reads a newspaper from cover to cover.  Mostly I just read news that catch my attention.  My attention was caught up by a story about a girl named Hannah Ysabelle Ordoviz.  She is an angel born with a rare case of congenital breathing defect.  According to the news, the condition is called Congenital Central Hypoventilation Syndrome (CCHS). It is a rare and lifetime condition characterized by one’s brain failing to signal the body to breathe. In her case, her brain stops the signal when she falls asleep.To keep her breathing, they need to attach her to a mechanical respirator which cost P750,000.  Add to this the fact that she can never play at the park or even outside their house.  If she needs to visit the hospital for her check ups, she needs to be taken to and from the house by an ambulance. Visiting her multiply site made me burst into tears(siguro dahil mommy na rin ako).  I googled her up today and I found out that the respirator that she needs is already given by God!  God really answers prayers.  Sabagay, sa dami ng nagdadasal para sa anghel na ito, I am sure God will hear it and God will send what she needs. 

Ako, ngayon ang hinihingi ko sa guardian angel ko sana ibulong nya kay God na gusto ko ng isang baby pa, at kundi kalabisan sana baby girl.

 

Ikaw, what is in your prayers? I don’t know if there is any one out there reading my blog, but if you happen to read this (kahit sino ka man), please say a little prayer for Hannah Ysabelle at kung pede po pakisama na rin ang prayer ng family namin for another baby.

 

 

 

My Little Chef

Jian had always been vocal about what he wants to be when he grows up. He wants to become a chef. I know it was very unlikely to hear this kind of dreams from kids. Infact, I have not heard of any other kids who said he wants to cook when he grows up. But, true indeed, my little boy seems to have the inclination to food. He is just about to turn seven this August but he seems to enjoy cooking. Well, being a foodie runs in his blood, so to speak. Both Hubby and me enjoys great food and I came from a family whose lives revolves around food (read: matatakaw!, hehe).

Here are some of his photos while enjoying his own version of hotdog omelette.

 

Err, can’t wait to taste it, hah?!

A day in the Wild

Jian has always been tugging on us to go to the parks.  Unlike kids of his age, he seems to enjoy the beauty (and heat!) of nature instead of the comfort being offered by the malls. Lucky for us, because these parks does not actually ask for a lot for entrance fees.  It also is a great way of distressing from the daily hustle and bustle thing we called “work”.  I thought that last saturday was not going to be different from all the other saturdays that we had.  I normally wake up late and asks the same question, “Where are we gonna buy our groceries?”.  Nagulat ako, kasi Jian replied “Ano kaya kung magpunta naman tayo sa park, antagal ko na kayang hindi nakakapunta sa park?”.  Gusto kong sumagot na walang groceries sa park.   I tried to convince him that it was not the right time to go there as the sun is about to shine its brightest and I don’t want us to be toasted and all.  But then, pinanigan ng ama, kaya ayun natuloy din kami.  . Add to this the fact that Apple, my cousin who stays with us, haven’t been to the Wildlife before.  We boarded a public utility jeepney off to the Ninoy Aquino Parks and Wildlife at around 10amWe were greeted by the scorching heat of the sun when we arrived in Wildlife at around 11am.  Walkathon na syempre ang drama naming lahat.  They don’t seem to care about the heat (buti na lang we were able to apply sunblock lotions before we went out!). 

 

 Being in this park, makes memories come back. 
Hah, this park seems to hold a special place in my heart. It was saddening to see that over the years, deterioration seems to take over the place.
The animals looked malnourished,and a  lot of the structure which houses animals are dilapidated.  Even the main administration building does not look properly taken cared off. 

It is no longer possible to fish on the lagoon, nor to go boating.  There was a nice part of the park which remains to be close and no one can answer how commoners can get there. I know that this park is a sanctuary for strayed wild animals but it appears that the whole place needs a lot of finances for make over. This reminds me the reason why even people from Class C & D crowds prefer to go to the mall even if its more costly.

 On a lighter note, it is nice to see that the cleanliness of the park was maintained well enough.  The flowering plants seems to be happy as shown in the abundance of the buds.  Oh and I almost forgot to say, that we were not alone on that day.  There are actually a lot of families and groups of young students on the park on that scorching saturday afternoon.

All in all, that day in the Wild was not a bad experience at all.  As the pictures implied, we have a nice time under the heat of the sun.

I just wish that our government could do something about the “dying parks” so that the next generation Filipinos could still savor the beauty of the wild without having to pay much.

Praying for Motherhood..the second time around

Roughly four years go when we decided to have another kid.  I stopped the pill and waited to be pregnant in the months that followed.  It was in the same year that we found out that my left ovary was not so healthy.   I was one of the many women who suffered from Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS).  My then-OB told me it will be hard to conceive the natural way.  During the same time, my Mom is struggling against Bone Cancer.    That made me shrugged off PCOS, I even told myself the old saying “pag di ukol, di bubukol”.  But waking up this morning made me realize that I am not getting any younger, few days from now, I will turn 33.  We have always wanted Jian to enjoy the role of being a “kuya”.  In our daily conversations , I often call him “Anya” or “Kuya”.  And I know he likes it when he is being called that way. 

Now, I am contemplating.  Should we try IVF or wait some more for God’s Time?

In the meantime, my officemate told me about St. Gerard Majella, the patron saints of motherhood.  I think I will try to pray some more.

Patron Saint of Mothers

 

Good St. Gerard, powerful intercessor before the throne of God, wonder-worker of our day, I call upon you and seek your aid. You know that our marriage has not as yet been blessed with a child and how much my husband and I desire this gift. Please present our fervent pleas to the Creator of life from whom all parenthood proceeds and beseech Him to bless us with a child whom we may raise as His child and heir of heaven. Amen.

Sino ang kamukha ni Jian?

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Kung sino ang talagang kamukha ni Jian has always been a topic of debate sa pamilya namin. Kahit sa mga kaibigan namin, this has always been a topic! Finally, me sumagot sa mga tanong na ito. The look-alike-meter decided, walang daya yan…All I did was provide a picture of us and voila, the result is (drums rolling!) ako ang nagwagi…Mas kamukha ko daw by 36% ang baby ko. ; p

Ano sa palagay nyo?

Prayerful Monday

Lord, make me an instrument of Thy peace; where there is hatred, let me sow love; where there is injury, pardon; where there is doubt, faith; where there is despair, hope; where there is darkness, light; and where there is sadness, joy.

O Divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console; to be understood, as to understand; to be loved, as to love; for it is in giving that we receive, it is in pardoning that we are pardoned, and it is in dying that we are born to Eternal Life. Amen.

**This is a prayer by St. Francis of Assisi.